Dear Diary,
im here again, im not in the mood recently,
getting more and more weaker, feeling more and more lonely.
i would rather turns to you.
yes i agree after chatting with sisters and nicole on msn just now,
nothing will sail smoothly in life,
even in love, we need to understand each other,
knowing what he or she really want,
forgiving and forgetting mistake made,
giving in at time ~
and life will goes smoothly so does love.
my life ?
i duno whether is good or bad i shld say.
but i can say that my life is unfair,
eventually when i treated someone good, i dun get back in return ~
but yes i found my love,
he is someone i love, someone so special and hold dear into my heart,
yes, he got the key to my heart.
But do he understand what i really want ?
can he sacrified like i do ?
yes, he is a good guy, i know im important at his bottom of his heart.
But he dun like to show, he can hack care abt me,
sometime not being honest when comes to game ~
i dun like him to maple, but i can't stop him.
that is his freedom, so i agree to let him play,
he can't be 24/7 by my side, he need to have his own time too.
i understand and im letting him to game,
but he's so addicted to it now,
what can i do, when i nag, he will say im naggy,
but when i don't,
He dun msg me, he dun call me, and eventually neglected me ~
and now i told myself, im tired of nagging, im tired of it ~ i shall stop all the nagging, i dun wan him to feel irritated either ~
So what i can do is wait, wait for him to realise that ~
Yes, he told me, he sometime will treat me cold,
but dun always, cos one day, i might be gone so far.
what i want him to be is be honest, be truthful, be caring & understanding,
everything is getting lesser and lesser as day goes by~
i wonder have this love fade ?
but whenever he knew that im angry, his sweet talks will come,
he wan come and talk nicely to me,
treat me nicely ~ without showing attitude,
that's what i want him to treat me..
i love when he treat me nice, treat me good ~
i love that way he look at me.
Maybe he thinks that is nothing, but in my heart it seriously hurt baby,
i know u love gaming, i know i can't be selfish,
i will let uu play,
but what i wanna say is i dun want game to be more impt to your life than i do.
i hope he will wake up one day, and things will go smoothly for us again ~
yes though is smoothly now, but gaming make mi a big headache!
but im fine with it le ~ as long as happy can aldri..
ytd was our off day, so he play his maple after seeking permission from me while i lie on the bed reading novel turning here and there, it's getting bored when no one to talk to ~ so i toss here and there,
in the end, he stop playing and came lying beside me ~
and we cab back to my place to put his stuffs and have our lunch b4 gg bugis.
went fushion II for pool again, IMPROVE*
but i need to improve more (:
pool for hrs and went village to walk ard,
he bought some blinking accessories, while i bought a ring too but for mom.
and went over to V8 to sit down ard 4pm.
do homework in there too ~
order lots of food, and slacked there till school starts.
it's was raining so big while we ran across the road..
went into class and get tired.
after school, baby & i went home.
he was over at my place,
slept after bathing ~
he gave a kiss on my cheek and we went off to bed.
i woke up twice in the middle of the night.
i duno why either.
but i really love the way when we are together ~
this morning i woke up first,
bathe and prepare b4 calling him up,
waited for him to wash up and left.
he went home while i went work.
and he's mapling now,
he gonna go back to station ltr to report, so wont be meeting him either ~
i need a rest cos im getting sick,
feeling a lil feverish aldri :((
i shall post some pic if i upload ltr(:
lastly i just wanna say, baby i love you (:
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